I Want It All

Helloo there.

So a week has passed and my summer's still pretty coooo. Just been chillin' and stuffs. Today I went over Jannerie's and we had a talk. I seriously love talking to her. I feel like I can tell her anything. She probably won't see this but ah, I FUCKIN LOVE YOU!!!

I'm planning on applying for a job tomorrow...er, later? I'm really hoping that I could get a hook up with the job. I really need the money. Tryna work more independently, ya know? I wanna save up and get me my own things for once. I'm really learning on not depending on people these days cause it can really fuck you over. Not just depending on family, I'm talking about depending on other people too. Cause seriously... what happens when they're gone? What're you gonna do? You're gonna be left there.. stranded on your own, not knowing what the fuck you're supposed to do. I really don't want that shit to happen to me. I'm also planning on moving out on my own in a few years... LA or NY. Not sure where yet. We'll see.

Been having stuff happening lately. Not really sure what's gonna happen. We'll see. Shit happens. If things are meant to be fixed, then they'll eventually get fixed. If they aren't, then they won't. That's what I keep telling myself. Surprisingly though... it hadn't really been affecting me as bad as I thought it would.

Anyways, what else? Uhh iuno.. There's nothing else really worth typing about. Well I guess that's all for now.

I'll probably blog more later later tonight. Juju's bonfire today! Woooooo!

Summer

It's summer time and honestly... I think this is gonna be the best summer I've ever had. And my dad isn't really trippin' about me going out that much! Well... it's probably cause I've let him use my grad money. If I could.. I wouldn't let him, but you know what? I have no choice. If I refuse to give him anything, he gives me hell. He didn't even give me anything for grad... NOT EVEN A CARD! But whatever, that's not the point. It was the first week of summer and I'm already having fun. Awesome. Let's just hope that the rest of my summer stays this way.

I really hope I didn't jinx it. =X

Well I guess I'll end it here.
Seeeyaaa.

P.S. I saw a sexy car for sale for $2,000. THAT would be the best grad present of all time.

So like.. I'm in Econ. And Alexis is singing the National Anthem.... with an accent. Then she showed me her eyelashes. And she batted them. And now she sniffed me. Wtf...

Damn 4 more days.. I hope this week doesn't go by TOO fast. Cause I am really going to miss high school.

And btw, i would like to say Happy 32 Months to my boyfriend(: I love you

Senior year is so close to being over. Dang, I am going to miss a lot of you. I am going to go try getting closer with some people cause they seem really great to be around and talk to. There are some people I have already gotten closer to and I'm real grateful for. Take people from my publications class for example. If it wasn't for the class, we wouldn't have gotten close and i wouldn't have had much fun... And i wouldn't have gotten a Twitter *coughreginacough* Hah, well yeah and there are people not in my publications that i've gotten close to as well. I'm grateful! Like seriously. :)

You Never Kept Your Word

I never seem to please you, huh? What is it? All the fuckin time you find something to bitch about. Even if you joke about it, it pisses me off. Either about my weight, my plans for my future, or my boyfriend. You never appreciate me. I mean, wtf..

"you're always with your boyfriend"
Okay, excuse me? I am NOT always with him. And even if i was, who the fuck cares? You're never around anyway! Either that or you SLEEP all day. What the hell did you want me to do? Stay home all day and sit in the corner? Why the fuck does it matter? At least HE makes me feel happy. HE's one of the only people that actually give the male race a good fuckin name.

"move out, get a job. you're useless here"
the fuck homie? I'M useless? Yeah, i WOULD get a job.. But how the hell would that work out if transportation's inconvenient around here? And FYI, i'm the one tryna make myself a good life by going to school. SHIT and don't act like you wouldn't care if i left. Who else would go and clean and wash the dishes around here, if not my sister? I sure as hell no it ain't you.

"i told you to go to skyline but you wouldn't listen to me"
BULLSHIT! When i first told you were i wanted to go, you didn't give a SHIT. The only reason why youre trippin now is cause your friend said something bout it. FUCK, shows how much you care.

you're getting mad at me because i wanted a car. You promised me a car a year ago, but that's not the point. You're saying im spending too much. Its my SENIOR YEAR, hello? And need i remind you of who kept going back to the PI to visit his girlfriend? EVERY OTHER MONTH? And all the phone cards you buy? And minutes you waste? and you didn't even spend a SINGLE dime on my 18th birthday.

i honestly cannot wait until i AM able to move out and live on my own. Every time here, i get more and more frustrated in our situation. We live in ONE FUCKIN BEDROOM cause you were too stubborn to pay the rent at Westlake. You're the reason why i'm in school, working on a better future

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Chill

Lol, that's what we did all day

Hellloo

Sooo, yesterday was pretty cool. I met RJ from Supreme Soul. He was really nice. He was there before everyone else from SS came so I saw him more than the others. They performed, that was cool too. Dude, the people there were hellllllaa good! I was just like WOW every other second. hahah. Hmm, what else happened... JJ talked Nasty Ray. I like him. He's reaaaaally good. There was a one on one competition. The finals were Nasty Ray vs. Karim. Karim won. But then the funny part was when Hella Hung was competing. He beat like 2 or 3 people? I don't know. Wellll, okay that's all. Here are some pictures from yesterday. One's of me & RJ, the others are some random people I took pictures of.

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Today..

So I'm going to the jam today with Jimmy Jon. The last time I went to CELLspace was like... two years ago. Jams are pretty cool to go to. You get to see all these hella good ass breakers, poppers, and lockers. Purty kewl. And just seeing JJ happy to just be around these people makes it even better. Haha, well it's still kind of early. I should go sleep for a little bit cause I don't want to get tired later. I'll try to take some pictures and post them on here later tonight.

Day & Night

boom, boom!

Publications

Michelle (looking at pictures of cupcakes): *moans* ...food porn.

hahah, you're funny Michelle.

I'm in a loving mood.

Damn, I love my boyfriend. He completes me.

I love my friends. I love everyone I talk to (even if it's not much). Anyone who makes me smile (or laugh) during the day. I can't live without you guys.

Whoever is reading this, I love you too. You seem pretty interested in my life. I love you for making me feel as if I'm really not typing this for nothing. Hahaha :) Thank you.

I love music.

I love my family even if they do piss me off a bit.

Ah, love--such a strong word isn't it? Hey, but don't get me wrong. I don't just love anyone I see or know so don't go thinking that. Anyways, I'm not sure why but I'm in such a loving mood right now. Okay! Time to sleep. Good night!

NTS

-Pay Val for cotty dress
-$ for Prom ticket
-$ for Prom dress
-nOATS for Film Lit
-Find a job
-Learn stick shift

to be continued.

What A Wonderful World

Hellooo lovely people. I seriously am trying to blog more. So I'm here again.

First let me just say HAPPY 30 MONTHS & 1 DAY to boyfriend. Been a LONG, LONG time man. I'm glad we're still togetherrr. I love you fooo!

So a couple of days ago. Thursday I think? My dad called me in the morning from work and asked me if I could drive a stick. He found a car that he'd possibly buy from a friend but it's a stick. Soooo, I'm tryna learn now. I really want that car! Fucckk, but the guy said he has to do a smog check and stuff so yea. I hope that thing passes. =(

So on Friday, my publications class planned to go to Opening Night. It's possibly a forshore thing. Yes I meant to spell it that way. lol, tomorrow we all need to bring 20 bucks. I had the money on Friday. Now, I don't -_- FML! My dad needed stupid gas money and I had to lend it to him. Now I have to figure out how to get 20 bucks by tomorrow. Gaynessss.

Last night me and JJ went to Cindy's birthday dinner. Pretty funnn. That whole night was fun. Except for when a stupid cop fucked up our night. But yeah. We went to BJs. Me and JJ went to Tanforan around 1 cause we had nothing else to do. The dinner was at 6. So we spent 5 hours in Barnes & Noble reading books. I found a book, The Idiots Guide to Journalism. I want it! If anyone buys me that book I'll love you for love. FORSHOREEE! Anyways, BJs at 6. Actually it was around 7:30 cause we had an hour and a half wait. It takes a while to seat almost 20 people. Hm, let's see if I can name all the people that went: Me, JJ, Cindy, Denise Yeung, Denise Cacholla, Alvin, Evelyn, Michelle, Berna, Chao Chao, Jasmine Apello, Julia, Jeremy, Andalau, EJ, Vincent, Hei Chung, Harry, & Sam. I think that's everyone? Miguel showed up when we all finished. After me, JJ, Harry, Andalau, Cindy, Julia, Sam, Berna, Denise Yeung, Miguel, Alvin & Denise Cacholla were bout to go karaoke but then when we got there, Sam, Denise, Denise, & Alvin had to go. So we all just chilled out there for an hour and a half. Some creepy ass security guard was in his car the whole time we were there. Didn't leave or anything! I don't know if he lived in his car or something but damn. His eyes were like O_O . NO LIE. After we went bowling. Well me & JJ just watched since we were broke but yea. We were cheerleaders. Cindy, Julia, & Berna VS. Harry, Andalau, & Miguel. Saw hella people that I hadn't seen in a while. Especially Nato! Hadn't seen him for 2 years. I think? Haha anyways, after we went to Starbucks then went home. Pretty fun man. Just thought it was a bloggable night. Got home around 2:30. But lemme just say that there are some stupid cops out there. -_-

Well I must end it now. It's getting too long. Hm, I'll end it with a video of when we were on our way to the bowling alley. Harry & Andalau bumped up Aerosmith. The streets were practically, almost, kind of empty so it was Harry's car, Julia's & Miguel's. lol that song will be stuck in my head for the rest of this week... and it's only Sunday!

ENJOY!

Freezing Cold

Hey guys. Haven't been writing here much. I've been busy.... No, that was a lie. Truth is, I forgot and when I DID remember, I was too lazy. Sorry!

So let's see. Where do I really start? Um...

18
I'm eighteen now. Yay for me right? Yippeee didn't really do much on my birthday.. or that weekend. -_- But it's cool. Pretty much had fun.

Love of my life
JJ goes to Westmoor now. How do I feel? I'm feeling pretty fuckin' awesome. Instead of texting him or talking to him on the phone 24/7, I can just see him at school. So yeah. It feels good having him here again. And plus, he's able to hang out with his friends again. So I'm glad for that.

$$$
Fuck man! I need a fuckin' job! I got hella shit to pay for this year! Sucks balls. I need to pay for the dress I wore at Val's cotty, my prom ticket, the rest of cap and gown, prom dress, ticket for Giants game, dress for Janelle's cotty, etc. I KNOW I'll have to be paying for other shit too but aghh. I need a fuckin miracle! Alright. Starting TOMORROW, I will be saving up the money my dad gives me for lunch. He gives me 7 or 6 dollars a day. Minus 1 dollar for bus money.. So that's like 5 bucks a day. Meanwhile, I'm gonna go look for a job at the same time. Someone wish me luck! =(

College
I applied for CSM. Journalism for shoree. I think I might be going to that college night they're having over there. It's at April I think? Dang April's a month away. This year is going by FAAAST!


Alright well that's all I wanna talk about for now. I swear I'm gonna start writing more. I have no life. lol =)
-MJ


P.S. HI ALEXIS!

Transitions.

So I've been thinking a lot about my future. It's January already and pretty soon I'm going to turn 18. This year is going by reaaal quick.

It's my senior year. I need to live it up more.
It's my last year of high school. After graduation, I'm obviously not going to see some of these people again. I want to start hanging out more with people I usually don't hang out with. Because dude, people can be reaaal fun to be with and you don't know it yet. Hm, I want to go on a trip with friends during spring break or maybe the summer. OH, and I also need to get my license soon...just needed to say that.

Stop, rewind.
I've been re-thinking what I wanted to do for a living. A while back I said I wanted to pursue music. Well after a while, I started thinking about doing something artistic, like a professional photographer or something. Now, I changed my mind again; I've become very interested in journalism. Being in publications class and writing articles for the school newspaper had really made me come to realize how much I enjoy writing. I know no one really takes the newspaper seriously but I actually like writing for it. Plus, my dad is actually supportive of the idea! My grandma on the otherhand is far from being supportive. -_- She still thinks I should work in the medical field. I mean, seriously. She says that I should study something in college that won't take up most of my time cause it'll all be a waste of my time but studying something I DON'T want to do is a waste too! I've said it before.. and I'll say it again: I'll either make it or not make it. I don't know but the thing is that I will work my ass off to get as far as I can cause I REALLY, REALLY want to do this. I'm planning on going to CSM then transferring or something. I should really start planning now. Okay, so when it comes to what I want to write for, I'm leaning more towards writing for magazines than writing for newspapers. Don't know yettt though.

13 more days
'til the big 1-8. I have noooo freakin' idea how to celebrate though. Dinner? Telly? Iduno. One thing's for sure: there is no way in hell I'm gonna have a party at my house.

Alright well I'm gonna end it here. kbye