Hot N Cold

Heelllooo.

Christmas passed. It was alright. Boring most of the day but yeah. We didn't end up going to where they said we were going to go. Christmas Eve my dad had work so I went with Jimmy Jon and his family to have dinner at his Stepgrandma's. It was very nice of them to invite me. I gave Jimmy Jon his presents, lol. I made him a collage of the two of us and I also got him Fallout3 cause I knew he wanted it hella bad. Ahah. Anyways, on Christmas day my family and I went to Tracy to stay at Tita Monette (auntie)'s house. We ate, ate, and ATE. And then the rest of the day I was just laying down and reading a book until Kuya Kado (cousin) came in and asked if me and Maan (sister) wanted to go to the movies. Sooo at 10, me, Maan, Kuya Kado, and Crystal went to pick up Jimmy Jon and went to watch Bedtime Story. It was pretty funny. The theatre was HELLA PACKED.... NOT! Haha, then after we ate at Denny's. We were just reminiscing about when we were younger. I missed my cousin. We hadn't kicked it in hella long. I forgot how much fun I used to have when I was with him and Crystal. Crystal's his wife by the way. I remember when I first met her. They were both still juniors in high school! Shooot, now they're married. Cuuute.

Alright well I'm gonna goo. I think Jimmy Jon might be coming soon.
Byeee.

Almost the Holidays

I haven't been here in a while. -_- my bad. Well nothing much had happened since the last time I posted. Ionnno, lol. Oh dang, well my phone doesn't work. My dad hadn't paid the phone bill so I have to wait like what, 2 weeks? Hella wackness though. -__- Can't live without my texting. OR hearing Jimmy Jon's voice. It's been really hard so far...

Well it's almost the holidays. People are excited. Me? Well I don't know.. this time of year is never a good time for me or my family. My dad says we're going to Vegas for the break but I am not so sure if it's for sure or not. He has a way of putting our hopes up and crushing them right after. Christmas is always the time of year where me and my sister get to feel all neglected and what not. We go to a family party but our parents aren't there. Our parents are always working Christmas Eve and Christmas Day since they get double pay. I don't even remember when the last time was when we actually spent time together. But yeah, at the Christmas parties we dont even feel like we belong. It's always about the little kids. I'm not hating on them though. I love my cousins. They're so adorable and cute. But we're mostly just pushed to the side. The other day someone asked me what I wanted for Christmas. I hadn't thought about it. Mostly because there was no point. I can't seem to remember when the last time my parents got us anything was. My parents can't afford to buy us gifts anymore. But it's not all about gifts. I'm just hoping that this year, my family and I will actually have a good time during Christmas. That's all I want. I want to know how it feels to be a real family having a real Christmas again. What I'm trying to say is that people are really lucky to have a real Christmas with their families. They should be grateful. I'm just like that little girl from that Drake & Josh movie; Wishing that me and my family get the best Christmas ever.. and even spending it with Jimmy Jon would be a big plus.

Um, I think I got too personal there. But it's my blog and no one reads it. Re-reading it, I seem all emo and shit. That's ugly. lol well on a lighter note, I got to hear JJ's voice today. I missed it very much. My mom's here and she let me borrow her phone. I think we're about to go to the mall soon. I guess I'll end it here? Laterrr.

Oh and btw, I just fell down the stairs and I think I hurt my ankle. WACK.

and Happy day after your Birthday, Aaron!
and Happy day before your Birthday, Andy!

...lol they aren't gonna see this. Oh wellllz. Whateeverrrr. Haha

1st Period

Hello to the people who read this. Which is probably no one. Oh well. I'm at school right now. In Personal Finance. My arms are lightweight sore. So like, when I type it starts hurting.
Anyways, today I'm going to Tracy to see Jimmy Jon. It's almost our 2 year anniversary. 2 more days! I don't even know what we're doing. I didn't even get him anything yet. I don't even think I have the chance to since I'm broke and I'm getting picked up by his stepdad. Damn.

So I was reading a book called Caught In the Act by Peter Moore. It was pretty good. Pretty crazy. I bet Mariel would like it. Haha, she likes all the books I read. I like reading. I just got a replacement library card a couple of weeks ago so now I am able to check out books whenever I want. So this book.. I can't get it out of my head. It's just THAT crazy. Like seriously. DAAMN. lol people might not agree with me. I don't care. It's still WOW. I did not see the ending coming.

Alright well I'm gonna go play games now. Seeya.

Weak

I am SO sore. I can't even raise my arms! I have never been this sore before. I don't work out (even though I should start) or anything so I have never felt like this before.

Yesterday, there was school then I went out with RJ. We had no idea where to go at first so we walked to the bus stop. Then, I saw Elvie and I asked her if she wanted to come. So it was me--a senior--and two sophomores. Haha it's all good though. Underclassmen are pretty cool... I guess. LOL jk. Anyways, we went to coldstone cause it was hot as fuck. I got a Banana Caramel Crunch. Then we kicked it at Fuddruckers for a little bit (fuck, hella bopper status). Then after looking at all the pictures of people on the wall, we took the bus home. RJ walked me home then I hella knocked out. Hot weather makes me realllyy tired. Then I woke up and 30 minutes later, Marbeth knocks on my door and asks if I wanted to go to Malibu Grand Prix with her and Eric and their friends. On the way there they were trying to say hi to every car they passed by. It was hella funny. Some asian guy driving a taxi nodded back like he was some cool guys. So yeah I had fun. I was hella nervous at first though cause I was scared I might go crash into something. They made me ease up though. So yeah, that was the best part of my day. Hanging out with a bunch of 19 or 20 something year olds. Haha they were cool to hang out with. I got home at like 11:30 and then Marbeth cooked up some chicken top ramen. I loveee that shit. Goood shit, good shit. So then I went to sleep and when I woke up, I ended up hella sore! I guess it was from the go-cart driving? I don't know. But OUUUCH.

I miss Jimmy Jon. He's out learning how to drive. I hope he doesn't get into an accident. lol
Well alright, I am going to start my homework now. NO MORE PROCRASTINATION.

Schoolness.

So I just got home. I'm trying to blog as much as possible because whenever I start one of these things, I forget about it and then it just dies. That will not happen this time.

So today was school.
Personal Finance -- We started off with SSR. I read The Mysteries, a book I started last year but never finished. Last time I read it was like in... January? February? I don't remember. Then, I started playing games on the computer. Those point-and-click games where you have to escape from a room. Then Mr. Ferrari started teaching us something which was like... the first time since the first day of school. -_- It's okay I'm not complaining.
American Gov -- We turned in our assignments (yes I finished mine. be proud, guys). Took a quiz. I think I failed because I wasn't studying when he gave us time, I ate because I was hungry. lol Then, Mr. Hallet started talking about the elections. Last week we talked about the Democratic Party. This week, we're talking about the Republican Party. Personally, I'm all for Obama but that's just me. If I was able to vote I'd vote for him in a snap. Anyways, he was talking about the lady McCain chose as his vice president.... I forgot her name.. *Checks Google* OH, Sarah Palin. Yeah so anyways, he was talking about how her daughter is pregnant. So like.. a lot of young people are getting pregnant these days. It's scary thinking about it. Like wowww.
Film Lit -- Mr. Burrows started talking about digging deep and stuff like always. Then, he showed us some scenes from the movie we were watching, Racing with the Moon. Then we finished the movie.
TA for Phillips -- I sat for the first few minutes. Then Ms. Phillips sent me out to deliver things. I was lost. Seriously because as she was giving me the stuff to deliver, she was telling me what classrooms to deliver them too. I thought I was listening but as soon as I stepped out of the room, I blanked out. I had no idea where to go. x] I'm a bad teacher's aide. Ahaha. I found my way. I had to go back to ask her again. When I came back I had to put papers in alphabetical order.
LUNCH -- Bought my Senior sweater. This year is the most expensive year ever. I'm gonna have to buy hella shit. Yearbook, Senior Portraits, Senior Sweater, Class Ring, cap and gown, Winterball and Prom dresses, Winterball and Prom tickets, Getting nails done for winterball and prom, Spring Break & Summer trip, THEN I have to pay $80 for the dress for Valerie's cotillion. I feel bad for my dad. I really do need a job =/
Publications -- We did nothing. Ms. Manzano was talking about what to write about in an article but then after that we were done. I was just talking to Clarisse and Mariel. I need to start on my article. Myspace and Facebook Addiction. I will not procrastinate on that.
Psychology -- Took notes on Freud then started the movie. Punchdrunk Love. I had no idea what was going on in the beginning. I realized during notetaking that my eyes have gotten worse. Everything got blurrier. I need to get my eyes checked. Shiit.

It was so freakin' hot today. I did not want to go anywhere but home. Now, I'm online chatting with Kevin and RJ. So I wrote a lot for a plain old day. Haha, dang. Well I'm gonna start on my homework now. Byeee.

I fail.

I procrastinated.

Crap. lol so I'm awake early because Jimmy Jon's coming over. He's going home today so he has to come early. For those who don't know, he lives in Tracy. An hour and twelve minutes (according to mapquest) away from here. Long-distance is hard but it's okay. I love him with all my heart and I know that we'll be able to get through this. He always reminds me that all this wait will be worth it when we actually are together.

So anyways, I think I'm practicing how to drive today. If I don't come back to blog in the next few days, weeks, or months then that means that I've gotten myself in a big car accident. Wish me luck x]

OKAY SO NOW I WILL DO MY AMERICAN GOV HOMEWORK. Seriously. I am. I am convincing myself to do it. Okay bye

Sunday Morning

Okay. So I guess this is my first blog. It's 10AM and I'm still kind of sleepy.
Later on, I'm going to eat at Ramen with Jimmy Jon. I've been craving for some octopus balls. Good shit though fereals. Sounds nasty but you should try em. I didn't finish my American Gov't homework yet. Hella weak. I promised myself not to procrastinate my senior year. So today I WILL finish. I need to work hard this year. I only have 2 classes that I need to take seriously (American Gov't/Econ and Film Lit) since the rest are all electives (Personal Finance, TA, Publications, and Psychology). But still, ONE fuck up and I might not graduate.

" What are you doing after high school? "
I've been needing to get this off my chest... A lot of people have been asking me that. Family, mostly. What do I tell them? "I don't know yet". That's pretty much a lie. I WANT to go to Full Sail University to major in Recording Arts. I WANT to tell them that but I know how they will react. "Why don't you just be a nurse?" then they start lecturing to me. Well, do I really look like I want to be a nurse? I'm not saying that nursing is a bad profession. It's a great job. Good pay, positions are always available, being able to help the people. But seriously. That's not what I want to do. Yeah, sure I might not be able to land a good job but that's just a possibility. I don't know where I'll end up in 10 years. But I do know that I'll be working my ass off to get somewhere. I'll find my way. Life is short. I don't want to spend it doing something I don't even want to do. I love music. And I want to be able to pursue music. If I fail, then it's on me.

So putting that aside, I need a job. Dad's been struggling and I feel that as the oldest child in the family, I should assist him in paying off the bills. I feel bad for him. He's been working 16 hours just to make us happy. Hm, maybe I should go job hunting today. We'll see...

Noob-_-

Okay, so I was just doing my American Gov't homework but then I got bored. So I decided to make a blog thingy. I have no idea when I'll start posting..... maybe um, eventually. Alright bye.